Day 63: Censored.

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Day 63: Censored.

My (ex) wife asked me to remove a couple of personal things from this blog, and do you know what I said?

Absolutely. What she wanted removed has now been marked as such, and I’ve promised to be more careful in the future. I need to concentrate on making this blog less about her and more about my recovery. My intent here is not to ████ ██████████ █████. I always knew that I might ride close to that line, but as I’ve said in the very first entry of this blog:

“I’m not going to talk about our marriage, which was good until the end, or the divorce itself, which was my fault. And I’m certainly not going to speak ill of my former family, ██ (████) ████ ███ █ █, and my wife has been kinder to me than she should have been. I don’t have the “advantage” of hating her, and that makes it all the more sad for me.”

That said, ██████ ██ █████ ████████ (██████  ███ █████████  ███ ██ ███). ███████████████████.

She needs to know ██  ██████ ██ ███  ███  ███ ██ ██████ – I didn’t set out to ███ ████ █████ ██ ██ ████ ███████████ ████. I am just a guy who took things for granted and ██ ██ ████████ ███████, which didn’t negate ██ ████ ██ █████. Even if it doesn’t make a difference now, she needs to know this.

And finally, she, and all of my readers, need to know that I am redoubling my efforts to stick to these mantras:

I can’t go back in the past to fix things. I can’t see into the future to know how bad they are going to get. Short-term, it is about me recovering. Long-term it is about me learning from my mistakes and taking steps to avoid them in the future.

I ██████ ██ █████████. 

I am making progress, however slow, on all of these fronts.